Thursday, December 20, 2007

Music and Bias(English Editorial)

Music expresses many ideas, beliefs, and opinions. Many of these can be skewed or taken the wrong way, so how should a person really understand the music they're listening to? Many times we can read into what a writer is saying to the point that we miss the main message of what he/she is singing about. And yet there are other times when we don't even pay attention to what we are listening to, and miss the joy that it can bring us. All music is biased; all music is an expression of the moods, feelings, and beliefs of the writers. If a writer is feeling hopelessness or at a loss, he will express those moods and feelings in his music. If a person has a cause for hope or joy in their life, they will express it; and yet either of these moods among many could be expressed in any song. When we listen to a song what kind of feelings does it invoke? Is there something wrong with feeling the same feelings as the writer, and identifying with him?

Just as emotions are communicated through music, beliefs are as well. Listening to a song doesn't particularly mean that we agree with the belief being communicated, but by listening to it we can understand the belief. By listening to this music we understand the author better, and those people who do feel the same as him. It is fine to listen to music passively, but at other times we gain the most from it by hearing the message and mood of the song and thinking about what we can learn from it. Is what's being communicated something that should be embraced or avoided? If you take the time to recognize and consider the bias, mood, and message without over-analyzing a new world of communicating opens up to you.

Friday, December 14, 2007


Well, I've had a lot to think about the last couple days. My last post wasn't really on the happier side, and really the things I've been thinking about aren't all the brighter. The thing is that I think my perspective on things is changing a bit.

I've really been introspective lately, just kind of keeping to myself. Not the most healthy thing, and I've noticed it to. This book I read a couple weeks ago talked about personal prayer lives, and made me see how much of my prayer time I spend praying about myself. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but it's not the best way to pray either.

Been trying to make my prayers less about me, and more about others. My problems really pale in comparison to others. My problems seem really big, and each of us face those things that really are serious, but really I'm not called to pray selfishly. I have to admit that I haven't been improving much.

You know, I think we all see that we need to pray for others, and yet I don't think I ever really encountered it. I mean I know there's people out their suffering, but when it's somebody you know... somebody who affects the people around you... it's different.

And yeah, I'm not posting to say I've achieved some "higher understanding" this week or anything, but it's just really awesome when God takes your point of view and turns it right around. So my nondepressing "Song of the Day" today is About You by Zoegirl

I've been thinking lately
About you
When it hit me from nowhere
Out of the gray
Everything's been coming together
Now that I'm moved
Beyond myself
And wrapped my head around
Something else

It's not about me
It's gotta be about you (everyday)
And all I wanna see is
Who you're turning me into
I will not forget
That you said
You'd always lead me through
To who I wanna be
Making every part of me
About you

I've been spending so much time
I was searching for affection
Inside myself
But I finally turned away
From my reflection
Saw your world outside my door
And everything that I've been looking for


So I lay down my pride
'Cause you laid down your life
And I'm giving love that's holding me by
And thinking to you
And you lead me through
And you always do


Sunday, December 9, 2007

Those Nights

I remember when
We used to laugh
About nothing at all
It was better than going mad
From trying to solve all the problems we're going through
Forget 'em all
Cause on those nights we would stand and never fall
Together we faced it all
Remember when we'd

Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In a dark room lit by the tv light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

I remember when
We used to drive
Anywhere but here
As long as we'd forget our lives
We were so young and confused that we didn't know
To laugh or cry
Those nights were ours
They will live and never die
Together we'd stand forever
Remember when we'd

Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong with us

I remember when
We used to laugh
And now I wish those nights would last


Yeah, life's complicated. Time's are changing, even worse-people are changing. I just wish we could go back to some of those care-free times. Sick of certain tensions that build, and wish things could go back to the way they were. I'm not talking about any one individual, but yeah...

Awesome songs that get me through the week:
Breathe Into Me-Red
Can't Go On-Group 1 Crew
Forgive Me-Group 1 Crew
Those Nights-Skillet
The Last Night-Skillet

I love the way rock songs give that release. You know what I mean? Just this strain that builds up that can't get out, and it's soo awesome to be able to listen to these powerful songs that are Christ centered and give that rush. For every time there's a season, and lately I've needed these songs that express an anger and outrage at the way things are, and look to the way they should be.

Monday, December 3, 2007

Wikipedia Lovers

Yeah I don't know about you, but I am like a super wiki user(not an addict though). I use it for a lot of my research, and I help my siblings with research by using it to. Well, I am writing a note of warning to anyone else who uses Wikipedia.

There is pornography on wikipedia. Now I'm not saying to go and boycott Wikipedia, because it is one of my favorite sites and has so much information it's not even funny. I do a lot of theological research on it as well, yet we need to be careful of the dangers that are there.

Today, I was looking up some information on drone honey bees for my sister. Well, do you know how many different terms that will come up with especially if you are looking for any information on mating? Now for some people this is a no-brainer, and yet I think everybody needs a reminder to be careful. I'll put it as simply as I can: there are depictions, descriptions, sketches, and diagrams that the main-stream considers "educational", but in reality these are pornographic.

Now, porn can be found anywhere if you look for it, but Wikipedia is a site that is normally not black-listed but has pages and pages of content that could be dangerous.

Tips to avoid problems:
-Use discretion, if something looks curious-it probably is.
-Use proper search terms(don't include words that could have double meanings).
-Use the library(yeah it's old-fashioned, but librarians can often help you find
information within minutes; AND make sure it's age-appropriate)
-Look for alternatives. If you do find a good page on Wikipedia, look at the sources.
Often these sources can be just as helpful.
-Guard your heart; if there is something questionable-don't use it. Chances are:
-There will be something worse.
-Bad content can be well hidden.

I haven't searched this site extensively, but it's goals seem to be to keep the site free of foul language, and sexual topics.

If you have any alternatives please post them!

Thursday, November 29, 2007

How important is communication?

Thinking(yeah, I have these long stretches where it doesn't happen and then boom it all comes at once :)... Each of us live our individual lives, and the sad thing is we become content with it. Maybe sometimes we get this twisted view into our heads that the way things are is the way they were meant to be so let's just be content about it. But is it really that way?

I'm thinking mainly about our personal interactions throughout the day. Here's where I make good on the "promise" I made that I would put personal stuff up here. I find that from the moment I wake up to the moment my head hits the pillow at night: my interactions with people is quite limited. You know this could be related to the fact that I'm homeschooled, but I think maybe this is something all kinds of people may encounter.

We do our thing and think we're interfering in the lives of others if we interrupt them or something. I mean we may not say it out loud, "Um... I'm just going to pass you by and not say anything, because I'm afraid you won't respond, or that I'll be interfering in your life", but(personally, maybe I'm just a freak of nature) I sometimes think it. Are we too content with living our own lives? Do we truly care about other people?

If we truly care about someone, we should be able to show it, especially through verbal communication. Now, for some of us that interaction can be very limited throughout the week, which means that when we do see people we should be all the more ready and willing to participate in communication with other individuals. It just drives me crazy, and makes me mad at myself when I look someone in the eye and pass by them without saying a word, and know they feel the awkwardness just as bad.

There's circumstances of course, but I think maybe we come up with excuses when what we really should be doing is caring about another person enough to bring up meaningful conversation-which is more than just talking about the weather.

So, yeah, on one hand this post is mostly self-reflection; I just needed to write out my thoughts you know? It's something I need to work at: making opportunities to encourage my bros and siss in Christ, and be able to communicate more than a "How's it goin", "What's up?", "Cold day today eh?".

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

What I...

Should be doing: school or work on boss's website.
Am doing: writing this.
Will do next: watch House on tv.

Best part of this day: got a school extension I didn't think I'd get.
Who contacted me last: Laina sent me a notification on FB.
Who I talked to on the phone last: Ben.

What I wish would happen: Some people email me maybe.
What I'm doing tomorrow: swimming, going to work, and doing school.

What I'm listening to: Life 100.3
What book I'm reading lately: Case for a Creator, and before that the Ishbane Conspiracy.

Um... Yeah... so I know a couple ppl are coming on here, but I hope there's more. Thanks ya'll for commenting so far!

Friday, November 23, 2007

Suggested Coping Methods?

Yeah, so I know I make a really big deal out of getting my license, but I am really excited! Problem is: I don't think I'll pass it. Any coping methods if I don't get it???

Wednesday, November 21, 2007


So, I don't know if anyones reading this or not. So how's everybody's lives? Looking forward to the snow? I have mixed feelings... Although I am looking forward to trying out boarding...

Ok, so "serious" question? Do you truly really not like it when I photoshop a picture of you? Or innerly get a laugh out of it? I mean seriously.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Lacking Human Contact

Yeah, I'm bummed that there was no soccer. And it's not because it's soccer, but homeschool
group... er... not homeschool group, but seeing people is the highlight of my week.

I was at the library tonight... working... I just figured out my schedule when our Bible studies
were moved arbitrarily to my scheduled night. Vundaful... So now the last couple weeks I've
had to rush around struggling to switch with somebody...

I could really use an email... I'm not even sure who checks their email anymore, otherwise I
would send messages myself.

Well, hope everyone is having a good week; and if anyone from HSG happens to see this before
Thursday, I will see you then!

My Composition

Yeah, I found this program that let's you put in the chords you want and than add instruments. It's pretty cool. The first song I did was put in Dm Bb C F for "My Desire" and then remixed it.

Today I made my own song... Here it is... What do you think?

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Monday, November 19, 2007

My Desire

The song by Wilfred Bout... The timing is off, but that is because the program I used only has 4/4 timing.

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Friday, November 16, 2007

How do I hate thee? Let me show thy ways...

Ok, so for English we had to write a parody of a popular poem by Elizabeth Browning. Now, please note that we specifically had to make it "How do I hate thee?" otherwise I wouldn't have picked such a topic. Now, part way through I realized that the only person I could hate would be the devil. So, in an uncheesy way please read this as thinking about the devil.

The Original:
"How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
"-Elizabeth Browning
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

My Parody
"How do I hate thee? Let me show thy ways..."-Aaron Best

How do I hate thee? Let me show thy ways.
I hate thee in a way that is so right
Thy bad mouth can breach good standards with might
O to end thy being and in great haste
I hate thee to a level I can't say
Thy hurtful seed, is horrid to my sight.
I hate thee nearly, for your aren't in Light.
I hate sincerely, for you do not Praise.
I hate thee with a passion I won't lose
Thou art a thief, and in knowing I saith
I hate thee for my own vices you use
With your lost saints, --- I condemn thee to death.
Wiles, fears, and all thy strife ---for as God choose,
Thou shall burn as fetter e'er thy last breath

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Classical Arminianism

Yeah, a theological post. Now, I'm not sure how to approach this as I don't want to start a debate/argument, but would rather share something our catechism class was discussing and learning about. It's the differences between the Remonstrants and modern day Arminianism.

We all know the Canons of Dort, and how hard they can be on Arminians. They show inconsistencies in thinking, and point out very valid and Biblical reasons why we as Reformed people believe the way we do. I just think that maybe we don't really think about the context in which the Canons were written.

At the time of the writing of the Canons, there were some really crazy beliefs and thoughts floating around the theological communities. I don't think I need to quote any since they can mostly all be seen in the Rejection Paragraphs. These Canons were written, yes, as a declaration of faith, but probably more so as a counteract to the thinking of the day.

What we need to think about is the fact that we are living hundreds of years down the road from those times. The Remonstrants aren't so pronounced, and modern day Arminians are quite far off from what the Remonstrants believed. What an Arminian church may claim as their declaration of faith, may not be quite what the PEOPLE of that church believe in heart and soul.

There needs to be a realization of the difference. So just as we make a distinction between the "Catholic" church and the "Roman" church, we need to define our terms. After our discussion today, our Pastor chose the words "classical Arminians" in his sermon to describe the teachings of a truly stringent Arminian church. He did this to point out that the general "Arminian" church believe differently than what their creed might say they do.

We need to be aware and careful of a tendency to "be proudful of our humility". We know that according to the Reformed belief, the Reformed Christian "has more" to be thankful for and humble about. Sometimes this can translate(though unintentionally) to a personal pride in "being more humble than those proudful Arminians". We need to recognize they are our brothers and sisters in Christ, and probably share many beliefs at heart that we do.

Now, no debate. Sure, post your comment, but try not to be confrontational...

Friday, November 9, 2007

Some Thoughts

Iunno... I've had this on my mind for awhile. And it comes partly from that Voice of the Martyrs devotional I've had for two years. Once in a while I pick it up and read a story. They are amazing.

While it's a good book, I'm not writing about it. I just mention it, because
it has numerous stories in there of people who gave up the lives of their loved
ones for the Word. I've just been thinking. I would give my life for the Gospel and all those I care about in a second-no second thoughts. If I was told: "Recant, or he/she dies." What would my response be?

There's been a shift in the media. On the good'ol cowboy and star trek tv shows and movies-the heroes were always those who put themselves in danger or died for those they loved. Under pain of torture they persevered, and never gave up the secret code or combination for the lock.

Now, it's completely different. Take a look at Spiderman or Batman and you see that the villains don't just go after the superhero-they go after those they care about. And these stories I've been reading about in real life are just as scary. Instead of threatening someone with a cattle prod, the bad guys put a noose around your sister's neck. Most of these people never give in, but could I do the same?

Without trying to sound metaphysical, you think maybe the devil got the picture? Maybe it finally occurred to him that true Christians won't break under the pressure of pain. Pain just isn't relevant-we, as Christians, learn and gain from it. So he's changed his tactics and goes after those we love. Has he found our weak spot?

Can you say with absolute certainty that if some Muslim takes you and one of your siblings hostage, and tells you to recant or that sibling dies-would you have the strength to stand? Would it even be right to sacrifice the life of a loved one-God understands right?

In less dramatic ways I think it's happening all the time. Sometimes we're on good terms with ourselves-thinking we know what we believe and why we believe it. Then we see somebody we know and/or love struggling with something terrible, and it causes us to think again. It's the indirect assaults that are the hardest to deal with.

In war, it's not the full on frontal assaults that are the most deadly-they can be foreseen and prepared for. It's the sneaky blindsiding to our allies and friends which cause the most damage.

Monday, November 5, 2007

"I'm Not Alright"-Sanctus Real

Song I totally love... I know I've been posting songs and stuff lately, but you know-music helps get me through the day.

"If weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of,
Then cool is just how far we have to fall
I am not immune-I only wanna be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall
Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth, I need to confess

I'm not alright
I'm broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through
It leads me to you, it leads me to you

Burn away the pride, bring me to my weakness
Until everything I hide behind is gone
and when I'm open wide with nothing left to cling to
only you are there to lead me on
Because honestly, I'm not that strong

I'm not alright - I'm broken inside, broken inside
and all i go through - it leads me to you, it leads me to you

(and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved)closer to you
(and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved)closer to you
(and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved)closer to you
(and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved)

I'm not alright - I'm broken inside, broken inside
I'm broken inside, broken inside
and all I go through leads me to you, leads me to you

I'm not alright - I'm not alright - I'm not alright
Thats why I need you"

So I noticed somebody said they need an incentive to blog again... Well to tell the truth, it's totally personal. I mean blogging used to be amazing. Like today me and Ben were going through that post that Mel wrote way back in 2006! The one about music, and it's soo cool to see everyone's opinions, and look back at my own.

Blogs offer a way for us to look back at what we used to think, feel, and(unfortunately in some cases) look like. I personally don't keep a journal-I know I should-but I don't. Just the last couple days getting back into reading the blogs, and going over what I and others wrote in the past few years... it's just really cool to see the problems we had, and look now and see that God is soo good.

Nothing really specific that I'm talking about, but like for myself I looked back at my posts from my dad's heart attack and how out of control I felt. Now I can look back, and have more peace right now through looking at God's provision.

That's not my only reason for blogging, but I have to say that it's a pretty awesome one...

Horrible Driving Lesson

Yeah, so Ben was over today suddenly which made me forget that I had a driving lesson. So 15 minutes after my lesson starts, my instructor phones and says she's in my driveway... bad way to start a lesson.

So, unfortunately I'm a defensive driver. I know aggressive is the way to go, but I'd rather be safe than sorry. I just drive defensively... I wait to see what's going on before I move. Well, since my teacher cannot read my thoughts and was getting ticked at my commentary-she didn't know that.

Suffice to say her voice rose in volume telling me to go faster, be decisive, etc... I didn't drive well, but that's cuz I was so internally mad I was ready to blow. Anyway, that lesson ended. I know I'm only a driving student, and she's an instructor-but, seriously, I do know how to drive: it's her comments that are freakin me out and making me nervous.

So... my day... hope everybody else has had a better one...

It wasn't all bad... me and Ben... cough... cough... accomplished something mischievous today-so we're happy :)

Saturday, November 3, 2007

Blogging League

So I created a very VERY simple script so that we can all synchronize our active blogs.

What you do:
Go to Blogger>Template>Page Elements>Add a Page Element

Pick HTML/Javascript and set a title. Maybe something like "Blogging League".
Next, put the following code into the "Content" box.

And that's it! You're done! Just add the page element and you should see all those who are currently blogging!

What I'm Watching

"Forgive Me"-Group1Crew

Father, I’m going through some heavy things
It seems like this world ain’t getting any better
The more we try to get closer to You
The farther we run from Your throne

I’ve spent so many nights wonderin’ when will it end
When will the day come when happiness begins
I’m running the race but it seems too hard to win
I’m sick of mourning my stomach is throwing up in the morning

I’m calling for help and watching it melt away
My heart’s been put on display and put away
In many ways, many times I told myself it was ok
And anger was the price that was paid
While these faded dreams just screamed to bring them home

The burden was too heavy I kept running from the throne
I can’t take it any longer
I can taste my spirit hunger
God please help me get home

Lord though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I’m not scared cause You’re holding my breath
I only fear that I don’t have enough time left
To tell the world that there’s no time left, Lord please
Lord though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I’m not scared cause You’re holding my breath
I only fear that I don’t have enough time left
To tell the world that there’s no time left

I’ve come to terms that I’m burning both sides of the rope
And I’m hoping that self-control would kick in before I’m choking off
The sin that be destroying every fiber I got
I need the Lord in every way I’ll never make it I’m not
Going back to the way I was before Christ in my life
I couldn’t do it I would lose it there’s no point to the fight
And I’m writing this song, for the people who don’t belong
I pray away the pain you feel from all the things that went wrong
Inside a life that’s filled with anger and disappointment
Cause daddy treated you weaker than all of the other kids
It’s annoying and I feel for all of you who wanna give up
You feel stuck I feel the same way Lord help us stay up
You couldn’t pay me to abandon the idea of true hope
That I could make it through this life into a place where there’s no crying
I’m dying to find You with open arms when I go
Knowing You love me and You waiting to give rest to my soul

Lord I don't know what I'm struggling for
There’s go to be more
Than this life I know
But still I’m here fighting to never give up
I find strength in Your love
And You will see me through

What I'm Listening To

"Romantic Love is Ergos Part 1"-James Macdonald

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Thursday, November 1, 2007

Tis late, but...

Well, after an awesome soccer game today I came home to do school... bleh... Biology can be cool, but not when you have 2 hours left to complete it and what begins to look like gibberish when you're falling over from sleepiness. So basicly I did what I could and gave up on the rest :) Pretty bad, but as long as I pass I'm happy.

So, I said I'd do something on Reformation Day. Well, I don't have much to say except for the fact that lots of people ask us what we do. It can be hard to explain sometimes, but I was kind of surprised by how many people actually knew who Luther and Calvin were. I had a harder time trying to think of the origins of Halloween. I heard something about being All-Saints day, but I always thought the occult made their holidays near the time of that as a mockery, but then I heard somewhere else that the Christians made the holiday near the occultic ones to deter from their celebrations. I'm not really sure what the case really was though...

So, for anyone who doesn't know-my dad and I visited Nobleton and had a marvelous potluck supper(one of my favorites being that wonderful meatloaf/ham/spinach roll that Miriam made :). After that we played quite the challenging game of Jeapardy which was pretty cool. I heard later that my church did the same thing that night, but that the questions were a little easier or something to that affect. Anyway, thanks for the invitation and had a great time!

So if anyone has some opinions on trick or treating, I'd love to hear them. Like: why exactly do we not trick or treat(aside from our age now)? Is it because of the whole demon/witch/ghost costumes and stuff? Is it just because it's secular? Is it because Reformation Day celebrations sounds like so much more fun? ;) Like is there a Biblical reason I shouldn't go trick or treating with some neighbors and be a witness by dressing up as Jean Cauvin(John Calvin) or Luther and ask for candy in German? lol

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

My Hope

What do I hope this blog will be? I personally hope this will be a place for me to post my thoughts and reflections. My past blogs, as most of you know weren't maintained regularly. Life just get's in the way, and we don't have time.

I'm not really sure why I've decided to try to start up again. I guess I'm just feeling like I'm not getting enough communication with friends. I really want this blog to not be something public that everybody I know sees, but a place where I can get the opinions of people I respect and trust.

I personally feel it would be beneficial to me at least-to try to post something at least once a week. You know, like a Bible verse that really helped me out this week; or some experience I had this week.

So, if you have a couple minutes to go to this blog and see what I'm up to, and comment on something-that'd be great. If anyone else is interested in blogging again-I'll link you. I'll only be linking to people who actually plan on updating their blogs. Maybe I'll even make a page that people can link to so you can see which blogs have been updated.

Well, I think that's enough writing for tonight. Maybe I'll post something about Reformation Day tomorrow if I get a chance.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Once Again

I find myself here again blogging. Tiring of Facebook and all it's applications and neat features. I miss the good old blogging where I could write for pages and pages and know that at least somebody was reading it.

I miss the times when blogs were productive and beneficial to all who read. Why did we stop the personal reflection and conversation with our peers? Why are we settling for random comments on photos and pokes?

Yes, these are fun, but are they rewarding? I know it can be so convenient to just log-in and do something quick... I'm finding that those little quick things don't accomplish very much. Does anybody else miss the genuineness of writing something worthwhile?

Don't get me wrong, I know we're all busy. In past years, I never could really understand what it meant to not have time to go checking blogs and things. Now that I have a couple jobs I begin to see what it means to have a job and be soo busy. Yeah, it's cool to be able to let someone know you're thinking about hem with a quick "hug" or something. I just think that possibly in the 10 minutes it takes to load SuperPoke pages or wall posts, we could be writing something meaningful for all to see.

I don't know... On one hand I even think this suggestion itself is unreasonable, but what are your thoughts?